When I grow up, I want to be…


that was my ambition since grade school until I changed my mind during form 5
and from there, either COMPUTER ENGINEERING or COMPUTER SCIENCE was what I had in mind since I got myself into graphic design and web design right after PMR
why I picked computer engineering? for a simple reason; because it’s harder than computer science haha plus I love physics and all those electronic stuffs!

in my 2nd yr undergrad, I realised that electronics are just not my thing
but then, I realised I like programming and totally in love with networking at the top level 😛 – aerial? signals? gimme a break! of course I know bits here and there but it’s not my thing; totally the same as electronics
I can do it but I can’t say I really enjoy it

so what’s my point?
my point is, no matter how much I dislike (or hate) something, I’ll do fine it in – take note, it’s doing fine not doing well
of course this includes you as well; if you like something, you’ll do a great job in it 😉
isn’t that right?

jumping to my main point here…
a lot of things happened and I sort of got a grip of the reality and what really are happening now
I’m trying not to go much into detail as it’s a personal matter
hopefully things will go back as how it used to soon, AMEN

looking at how things are, there are a lot of times how I wished I didn’t pursue engineering even though that is my interest since years ago
I should have just force myself to take medicine and go through with it
or at least, I should have taken medical engineering or the likes of it
at least, I’d know what’s going on and not just stand by the side and leave it to the pro to do their job
I’m not saying it’s an easy path; but engineering itself is not that easy either
with lots of wills and hard work, it should work out somehow

whew! I’m full with regrets even though I know that I shouldn’t
things happened for a reason but… *sigh*
It hurts to see them poking the needles around like no ones business on my beloved person 😦

I could go on and on with my regrets and all the if only thoughts so I’ll stop here

anyway here’s a photo for today
the photo been up in my fb page for a few days or maybe weeks already

7 responses »

  1. masa kecik2 sy nak jadi doktor. budak kecik tipikal.hehe. bila dah besar skrg, barulah cita-cita tu dirasakan bukan sesuatu yg sgt mudah..wuuu. bergerak mengikut masa.tengoklah nnt boleh jd apa.waaa

  2. Ketika kecil dahulu, ayah pernah memberi motivasi supaya menjadi seorang jurutera serta di dalam masa yang sama menjadi seorang ilmuan agama.

    Namun kini, impian menjadi jurutera itu diganti dengan impian ingin menjadi seorang ahli perniagaan/ usahawan. i’Allah. Amin. 🙂

  3. Hi Adila, thats a beautiful pic of you.
    And hey….try and say, ‘regrets I have, but too few to mention’. Sounds better, ha ha ha.
    Anyway, you’re doing well, and the world is waiting for your fingerprints.
    Go have fun!

  4. When I grow up, I want to be… an ARCHITECT! tooo..!
    Dulu kat library sllu usha design2 bangunan2 kat luar negara.
    Memang dah bercita2 sgt nak jadi deisgner bangunan/rumah
    Tpi last2 terjebak dgn comp. science. hahaha ye comp. engine lagi susah rasanya.
    Itu bermakna u lagi pandai (:
    Eh jap, pernah tak u terfikir dulu nak jadi blogger? hehehe ;P

    Pssst, I naK CURIK pic tu. Nampak moment yang sweet!

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