When I grow up, I want to be…

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an ARCHITECT!
that was my ambition since grade school until I changed my mind during form 5
and from there, either COMPUTER ENGINEERING or COMPUTER SCIENCE was what I had in mind since I got myself into graphic design and web design right after PMR
why I picked computer engineering? for a simple reason; because it’s harder than computer science haha plus I love physics and all those electronic stuffs!

in my 2nd yr undergrad, I realised that electronics are just not my thing
but then, I realised I like programming and totally in love with networking at the top level😛 – aerial? signals? gimme a break! of course I know bits here and there but it’s not my thing; totally the same as electronics
I can do it but I can’t say I really enjoy it

so what’s my point?
my point is, no matter how much I dislike (or hate) something, I’ll do fine it in – take note, it’s doing fine not doing well
of course this includes you as well; if you like something, you’ll do a great job in it😉
isn’t that right?

jumping to my main point here…
a lot of things happened and I sort of got a grip of the reality and what really are happening now
I’m trying not to go much into detail as it’s a personal matter
hopefully things will go back as how it used to soon, AMEN

looking at how things are, there are a lot of times how I wished I didn’t pursue engineering even though that is my interest since years ago
I should have just force myself to take medicine and go through with it
or at least, I should have taken medical engineering or the likes of it
at least, I’d know what’s going on and not just stand by the side and leave it to the pro to do their job
I’m not saying it’s an easy path; but engineering itself is not that easy either
with lots of wills and hard work, it should work out somehow

whew! I’m full with regrets even though I know that I shouldn’t
things happened for a reason but… *sigh*
It hurts to see them poking the needles around like no ones business on my beloved person😦

I could go on and on with my regrets and all the if only thoughts so I’ll stop here

anyway here’s a photo for today
the photo been up in my fb page for a few days or maybe weeks already

Flowerlicious Part II

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happy belated eid adha!
how was your eid yesterday?

I was in bed; sick😦
it wasn’t that bad tbh; only runny nose and sore throat – a bit feverish the day before
it was only around the evening that things went bad; I passed out twice in a row =.= and also I had a brief fit
that was scary as I never fainted all my life before

I first fainted on my way from the kitchen to the living room
good thing my mom asked my bro or dad to see if something was falling as there was a huge BANG sound – turned out that was me LOL
I then gain my consciousness back
…and then I was back on my feet trying to get to the living room which was just a few steps away but before I could get there, I passed out again and this time I had a fit

dad was saying how I really scared him, fainting out of nowhere!
sorry dad😦

it might be the medicine that I took – too much for me to handle?
or maybe because I didn’t eat much for the whole day

dad was worried about it; until this morning and kept on checking on me if I were to pass out again
I am much better now😉
InsyaAllah I won’t pass out again

passing out twice in a row is totally no good
I have no idea how did I fall; I have no memory of it
it happened just like that
but what I know, I bruised my knees and I think I sprained my wrist; and it’s purplish there as well =.=
I might hit my chin too
hopefully I didn’t hit my head too hard =.=

it felt like I was on a marathon when I woke up lol – aching all over!
it’s such a relief that I wasn’t holding onto any glass or such when that happened (or bang my head at the cupboard corner or something)

phew! such experience! – which I reallllllly hope it won’t happen again

here are some photos that I took at Cambridge University Botanical Garden
previous posts; Cambridge University Botanic Garden
and Cambridge University Botanic Garden Part II
Flowerlicious Part I

hopefully everyone is in good condition
and stay healthy + safe!😉
being sick is no good😦